here i am sitting here chatting with my jie but crying at the same time. unbelieve? dunno why so emo today. go read TW blog today den saw him writing abt breaking up with his GF which i think is common but den read his another post abt his future, i suddenly so sad man. how can anyone be so stupid de not wanting his life and giving up! ya i use to think of tat all the time but not now anymore. i cannot stand to see anyone walking out of my life anymore! the feeling is just so bad even words cannot explained it. so ppl can u all STOP telling mii u wan to die? can't u all just bear with it and get the damn over it? i am tired too. i am sad too. i am a human too! i know everyone will leave mii eventually but i dun expect it to be so fast with one after another, adding hurt over to another when last one had not even heal, it is just damn to fast.
maybe i am over emo and just cant cope with wat happening, too stressful for mii. had to go in and out of hospital again. ah ma 88 percent of her organ is not working anymore. time to prepared for the worse but how can i take it? i had been thinking abt it and i am afraid of any suddenly call by mother. maybe i am just running from the truth? i reali dunno, just hope everything will go back to normal...reali normal.